while love the 'ousemaid lights the kitchen fire

my cat is so cute but she is also looking all anxious and panicked but in a cute way, i think she wants to go to th toilet but she hates to go outside and get cold and wet and dirty so she is just trying to hold it in for as long as she can, i have beauty and the beast stuck in my head it is good i love that movie but the problem is that it gives me irrational ideas about producing and starring in broadway musicals, my brother michael is wearing white pants it is funny i think they are for cricket, i am meant to be doing some kind of essay or maybe three but writing is hard especially when i DON'T HAVE A BEDROOM only a bed in the computer room no privacy or work space ever and so i am already ridiculously behind only two weeks in to the semester and i'm not sure how much longer i can deal with the lack of being tidy and organised and having personal space WHO DO THEY THINK I AM little miss doesn't-mind-having-all-her-things-scattered-randomly-around-the-house-and-not-being-able-to-find-anything-ever? people are yelling and moving mysteriously sourced blue mattresses around my house i am so confused i wonder where my glue is oh golly it is almost 12 already where did the morning go? it is okay thought this means the horror that is saturday morning (sarah you were so right) is lmost over and i can start worrying about the afternoon, of course is also means i have successfully procrastinated all morning when will this end? successfully has three lots of double letters, i don't know how many mattresses has i am pretty sure that i spelt that one wrong but i won't look it up i will leave it for you lovely folk to ruminate over yesterday was rose's 21st birthday happy birthday rose! wow you are so old it is getting scary i have to start thinking about the looming terror that is my 21st maybe i could not turn 21 just have a 5th anniversary of my 16th wow 5 years is a long time was it really that long ago now you'd think i would be over it ha ha ha ho ho i wish i had wings then i could fly home from church or maybe just a bike i could be the best bike rider ever except that i would smell bad all the time and i really do not like the sound of that what i need is some kind of portable shower, or maybe some kind of bike that does not make me smelly and will not give me helmet hair oh marvelous illusion, oh terrible surprise what is this strange confusion that veils my aching eyes - 'tis 12, i think.